Today is February 23, and this day is an incredibly special day to me because 5 years ago God blessed me with one of the greatest gifts in my entire life - this little beauty.
Today Emery turns 5! For 5 years this day has been filled with much feasting and celebration for the life of our little girl. For those of you who know her, she has lots of life in her. She is a free spirit who knows almost no fear and brings joy and love everywhere she goes. She’s almost always dressed in all pink (because that’s what she thinks she should always wear). Her saddest moments come when she realizes her skirts don’t spin out as much as she wanted, and she’s also coming to a better place of understanding with the fact that God chose to give her brown hair and not “yellow” hair - though she sometimes still prays for it to turn yellow.
Today, we are celebrating all things Emery, and to be honest, my heart is full of joy while at the same time it feels like it’s full of sadness and pain. My tears are tears of both joy and sadness. We’ve known for a long time that God desired to grow our family. Petey and I longed for another child, and Emery has longed for a sister. We saw the face of daughter for the first time on August 31, 2011.
At the time, Yenenesh had just turned 2 years old. We began praying as a family that we would have her home with us by February 23, 2012. Today is the day we have been praying for, and there are still thousands of miles that separate our family. Today we are confronted with feasting and mourning. This is not what we wanted nor what we had hoped for, but this disappointment is not our end. We have a greater hope.
But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”
The LORD is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
It is good that one should wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.